Sunday, October 23, 2011

Painful Admissions

Probably because I always over-valued my independence and dependability, this is painful for me and frustrating. Recently I have not been able to keep up my blog, nor have I been able to keep up with fellow bloggers. My back pain has come back with a vengeance and I have to take a lot of pain killers to function at all. They are just over the counter stuff—the heavy duty drugs knock me for a loop and my system rebels. Nevertheless, even the lightweight drugs leave me a bit fuzzy-headed and lethargic after a bit. I got through both shows in decent condition, but maybe I pushed too much. At any rate, I have been in rough shape.

This is not what I want to be talking about. It is so boring it makes my teeth hurt, but what is more painful is having friends think I am so caught up in myself that I have no interest in what they are writing about and the images they are sharing. I have hopes that my back will settle down. I have tried some remedies lately-all of which backfired, big time, but I remain hopeful.

I shall return! Meanwhile, I will stay in touch as best I can and am determined that this week I will at least be able to get out on the web more to see what everyone else is up to.

16 comments:

  1. We miss your words but it's more important to heal first. Hang in there!

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  2. Sounds like taking care of yourself is the most important thing for you to do. Blogging has provided you with contact to many people you would not otherwise have known. So, my way of thinking is that you now have more people who will pray for you, in whatever way they have. I too, have chronic back pain and trouble so, please take care. Hugs!

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  3. No need to apologize, Anita. I hope you have a speedy recovery. Just take care of yourself and pick up where you left off. The faithful will wait.

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  4. Steve - To sum up my reaction to all this: "Grrrrr." (sound of teeth grinding). I appreciate your comment, Steve. Thanks.

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  5. Monte - Thank you for showing me another way to look at this. I do tend to get caught up in fighting, regretting, and generally raging against forces much bigger than I. How on earth do you fly with a bad back??!! Car trips are bad enough.

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  6. Ken - Thanks for the good wishes. Eventually, this episode has to subside.

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  7. Sorry you are not well. Take care of yourself and don't worry about the Internet. It is not the most productive use of a persons time to begin with, yet alone when real life starts to get hard.

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  8. Roberta—Thank you for a very interesting perspective on this. You have given me something more to think about.

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  9. Don't apologise - I'm sure we'll still be here when you feel better, and think of all the wonderful pictures you'll have waiting for you when you return! Hope it improves soon.

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  10. JP— Having gotten "out" yesterday, I can vouch for the wonderful pictures. Thanks for the good wishes.

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  11. Of course I agree with everyone else here who voiced your health and well being are most important. Take care of yourself and everything else will take care of itsself. Best wishes and prayers.

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  12. Earl—Sometimes, life limits our choices and we find a way to deal with it, or else, right? I admit that I am still in search mode. Thnk you for your always welcome thoughts. Prayers are always appreciated.

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  13. I certainly can relate to the back pain issues Anita - and you are doing the best thing for yourself. You have to focus on getting better. Be well Anita and take care of yourself. I hope it is better soon.

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  14. Mark—Sometimes we are cornered into doing what is best for us. Since I haven't always demonstrated good judgement in these areas, I can begrudgingly appreciate having choices pretty much eliminated.

    Apparently, bad backs are alarmingly common. Please be smart and take care of yours. Thanks for visiting.

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  15. No worries, Anita, I would never think that you were that way, having no interest in others. Quite the opposite.

    I'm sorry for your back, it has to be painful, both physically and mentally. If my wishes worked, you would be good by now. Maybe is it the time difference? I hope you feel better soon.

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  16. Ove—Thank you for the kind words. I am going to take comfort in that idea of time difference. I will just have to be patient.

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